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It was supposed to be a day worth celebration,

Marking a new milestone in walking our life together,

A day to jump with joy on my result and the end of your exam,

Nothing seems more perfect 

As if we were made for each other

And dancing together in your prom.

This was how I've pictured, 

Only now it is a dream that would never come true.

How many thousand times,

I've picked up my phone trying to dial your number,

But it's not easy,

for a new chapter has begun,

I'm no longer your need,

Like a pen run out of ink, 

It's time to replace.

I know, 

It's not been easy for you,

It must have hurt you so bad to have it replaced.

I know,

I shouldn't have opted for a break,

It was out of good intention,

Nigh was your exam,

Concentration and focus you needed,

For I failed to notice the root of the cause.

For I thought stress was to be blame.

I still care,

And I know you do too,

But the way we care for each other,

It would be a challenging one.

But I'll stand by you,

Genuinely as your friend,

If you ever need me.

Just so you know,

I'm letting go,

For your smile is what I adore,

Even though I'm not the reason you smile anymore.

That's the last thing I could give,

Bitter sweet taste,

I'm going to miss you,

Like a child misses his blanket.

For years I've not cried,

I never felt this much alive and real, 

Yes, 

You've thought me it's ok to cry,

It's ok to show your true colour,

You believe in me and gave me strength,

Made me a real person than I was,

Thanks for loving me.

 And I'm fine,

Life has not lack of laughter, 

It's been great,

I believe,

tomorrow will be even greater,

to me, to you.

My lacrimal gland has became slightly active recently, so active that I almost tear while I was indulging myself in Glee for the past two weekends. It reminds me of my high school, only not so fulfilling; it reminds me of all my broken dreams, reigniting the courage to dream big again; it reminds me of the unfinished journey with you,  with melodies best remain unsung. 

Somehow, I still think maybe one day, you'll come back to me like how it always happens in movies. But neither am I Leo nor you're Paige. It's glad to see how happy you are now. Oh please, make no mistake, I'm happy now, even though the end of the road to full recovery is still  unseen, and every now and then, I still miss you, as a friend. 

 Anyway, I like this song so much recently, one more song added into my weird music collection, well, I've always have weird taste, don't I?  :p

Like a heavy downpour without any sign, a rush of mixed emotions just swarmed my mind, drowning me in the endless uneasiness...

Please be happy, at least don't look back anymore, at least let both of us know that we've made the right choice. Yes, I still miss you a lot and there are times I wish I could have the courage to hold you back, but I know all these will not turn out good, at the very least, make me a good memory to you. 

But please, don't make me a stranger to you. That's really hurt. I'm just not that kind of person who can say goodbye like nothing happened before after being so close. 

Please be happy, for sometimes good things must fall apart so that better things can fall within. 

Just close my eyes
 you will be alright

I will be alright

everything will be alright

 you and I will be safe and sound

right?