My lacrimal gland has became slightly active recently, so active that I almost tear while I was indulging myself in Glee for the past two weekends. It reminds me of my high school, only not so fulfilling; it reminds me of all my broken dreams, reigniting the courage to dream big again; it reminds me of the unfinished journey with you,  with melodies best remain unsung. 

Somehow, I still think maybe one day, you'll come back to me like how it always happens in movies. But neither am I Leo nor you're Paige. It's glad to see how happy you are now. Oh please, make no mistake, I'm happy now, even though the end of the road to full recovery is still  unseen, and every now and then, I still miss you, as a friend. 

 Anyway, I like this song so much recently, one more song added into my weird music collection, well, I've always have weird taste, don't I?  :p

Like a heavy downpour without any sign, a rush of mixed emotions just swarmed my mind, drowning me in the endless uneasiness...

Please be happy, at least don't look back anymore, at least let both of us know that we've made the right choice. Yes, I still miss you a lot and there are times I wish I could have the courage to hold you back, but I know all these will not turn out good, at the very least, make me a good memory to you. 

But please, don't make me a stranger to you. That's really hurt. I'm just not that kind of person who can say goodbye like nothing happened before after being so close. 

Please be happy, for sometimes good things must fall apart so that better things can fall within. 

Just close my eyes
 you will be alright

I will be alright

everything will be alright

 you and I will be safe and sound

right?

Here I Am Again

Any loyal reader out there? Ok never mind, I see no hands... It's ok, I just feel like writing =P

Believe me, there were times where I was back here with the intention to share, but for whatever reasons, it always got interrupted and now, there are more drafts than published posts in my admin page. Hopefully this post will be published and not remained as draft.

Well, second day of 2012, but I seriously not in a mood to set my new year resolution neither am I in the mood of reviewing my progression on my last year's resolution. But 2011 had been a year so different from what I've gone through for the past 20 years or so. Well, I'd just dedicate this post to some of the TOP moments in 2011.

Top 2 Terrifying Moment in 2011

2. I've done my work and I asked my senior through online communication tool if he/she needs any help and he/she replied "I need someone to kill me, can?" 

Believe me, that's one helluva of scary stuff. First thing first, I barely know him/her and secondly, online communication tool has no emotion, so I don't know if he/she's fooling around with me or I'm simply too annoying. Not knowing what to do next, I just stood there dumbfounded.

1. My car spun violently and all I hear was several loud crashes and glass shattering, thank God I'm still alive...

I do not wish to re-experience this ever again, it is the worst thing ever happened to me by far. Thank God I was alone on that road that morning and I came out the badly damaged car unscathed.


Top 2 Unforgettable Moment in 2011 

2.  I visited my grandma in hospital and she asked me to sit but I said I've been sitting too long until my backside hurt, she smiled... And that was her last smile...

I've never liked the idea of dying, and even though I know sooner or later I'm going to experience it, I've always shun the thought away. Until in late August 2011, I've seen my grandma passed away in front of me. She'll always in my heart, may you rest in peace, grandma.     

1.  She was dressed in light blue Maxi dress, a 3-course-meal awaiting me...

That was one of the best nights I had in 2011, she cooked a 3-course-meal all by herself, setting up the candle lights and waiting patiently for me to come over after work. When her plan dawn on me, I couldn't close my jaw for a good 10 minutes and no words came out of it. It was very unexpected and hey dear, you are awesome! Thanks and I will always love you...

Happy 2012!